Letting go of the past

I am doing my best to get back on track. Yesterday I woke up feeling sad. I spent the morning wondering where it came from. Why was I sad? I have no reason that I can think of for this feeling. In pondering the why's I realized that this time of year...in the past...has seen many good-byes. It is more than just an end of summer. For many of my recent years it has been a time of heart felt good-byes.

19 years ago this September, my husband (he was just a new love at that point) went away on a 7 month journey around the world. I cried for days, weeks, months, wondering if this new love could survive this long time apart. It has.

My daughter heading off to college.

My son starting boot camp.

My son going to Afghanistan.

My son going to Iraq.

None of these may seem like big things to others...I certainly respect that, but for me, who has had abandonment issues her whole life, these were big good-byes.

So yesterday, this realization of what was bothering me, gave me a new outlook on the day. I was able to let go of these good-byes. They are not my reality this year.

All is well.