Sunday, September 14, 2008

I see the Light

Last night on my way to work I was listening to a tape by Marianne Williamson speaking about the Course in Miracles and by no accident the first tape was about guilt. Then this morning I was listening to some news and flipped the channel of the TV and there was Joel Osteen (a Christian minister) speaking of how un-guilty we are in the eyes of God. (ARE YOU LISTENING LISA)...ahhhh yes I am!

What I got from this is when we hold onto our dramas and guilt it keeps us away from who we really are and who we might become when we release it.

Why do we judge ourselves and others when God Almighty does not do this? All we have to do is look to nature and realize that God does not judge, that guilt is about judging ourselves or another and deaming them less than something our ego has invented.

While I was driving I was shaking my head and agreeing with what she was saying. I was stopped at a red light and all of a sudden out of the corner of my eye I saw some writing on a car that was turning towards me in the other direction. I strained my eyes to see what the writing said and it said "The little mustard seed"...and then I noticed that the car was the color of mustard...but I knew there was a bigger meaning to me seeing that car because I know the story of the mustard seed from the bible. And then Marianne mentioned the faith of a mustard seed. Yup, I almost drove off the rode...and then she started speaking of Surrender. I am really listening.

Then my mind started going crazy and I wished I could have pulled over and started writing right then and there. But alas, I had to wait till this morning and I have lost a bit of the clarity that was coming..but I remember the one thing that became so relevant to me is the thought of God as the father. As a mother of two, I can honestly say that there is NOTHING, NOTHING, NOTHING that these two humans could do that would EVER turn me away from them. There is NOTHING that would make me stop loving them. And in saying that, in my eyes these two humans are guiltless...completely. This does not mean in the so called "real world" that they have never strayed or done things "they" might not be proud of, what it does mean is that as their mother, I can look at this things and completely without question see the real "children of God" that they are.

In having these thoughts I realized in an instant the love of God and how truly guiltless we are in the eyes of God. He/She has given us the perfect way to understand this (in the love we have for other humans and for myself most specifically the love I have for my children).
Now, I know not everyone is a parent, and may not understand this on the level that I am speaking, but I promise you that it is real. God's love for us without ANY conditions is real, true and faithful.

If God loves us this way, and sees NOTHING in us that is 'wrong', why do we continue to judge ourselves and others as guilty? It makes no sense.
Ask God today to help you see yourself the way He sees you. Ask God to help you forgive yourself (from your own viewpoint) the way you already are forgiven in the eye of God. Ask God to transform your negativity into a great and grand purpose. A purpose that shines the light that was created in "His" image and reflects that you are a witness to His grace and fully clothed in the Grandness of who you truly are;

A child of God.

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

"60 Days to Surrender Success" Starting Sept 8

September 8, 2008

60 Days to Spiritual Surrender Welcome to “60 Days to Spiritual Surrender”

Setting yourself up for Successful Surrender

Day by day for 60 days (8 Weeks) you will be asked to stay focused with your thoughts, your beliefs, your intention and then to completely surrender the outcome to the Universe.

As with most things in this life, you will get out of this what you put into it.

If you are not familiar with “I Surrender This”, please go to the website and download the e-book or order the full product “I Surrender This”.

Sometimes I feel like a broken record, but I can’t emphasize enough that the core piece to your success is to work with the complete kit/altar. It is a holistic process and it will be to your advantage to work with it all.The Universe it open and willing to all that you would wish for and desire. It is your job to remove any obstacles which may be influencing any other outcome than the outcome you desire.

Surrender is an active thought of “Thy will be done”. It is not enough to just wish something into existence. You must think it, believe in it, intend for it to happen, and then surrender the how, why, when, and where’s to the Universe.

What you will need to work this course:

1)A journal or “I Surrender This” kit.If you have not purchased “I Surrender This” you can use a journal of your choosing. Just make sure it is not something you are using for other work. Your intention for this course should be to Surrender and nothing else. I am a big believer in the field of energy. You want your energy for this to be clear of all other work and thinking.

2)An open mind. I will be suggesting many things that may be out of your awareness. If I mention something you have never heard of, take the time and do some research on it. The internet is a vast resource for anything I may be speaking of.

3)Prepare mentally each day to be accepting of the work. Be kind to yourself. The better you prepare and go inward the better your chances at fulfilling your dreams. This preparation is important work! It is readying your mind to accept what is already yours and to release the illusion that it is not.

4)Understand that now is all you have. What may be getting in the way of you achieving and realizing anything for your life? Is procrastination or avoidance getting in the way?

5)Don’t let the simplicity of some of the exercises fool you. Each one is designed specifically for a reason and should if at all possible be done in order.

If you ever have a question please e-mail me at

As always, my blessings are with you,Lisa Sullivan

Thursday, May 15, 2008

I will always love you, Karen

Today marks 4 years since the passing of one of my best friends, Karen Satherlie Davidson.
I feel her presence so often in my life and can still hear her laughter and be touched by her constant caring. She is never far away.
When Quinn was in the intensive care unit, I could see her sitting on the side of his bed. I know she held his hand in the helicopter and I know she watches over so many that she loved her on Earth.
What a powerful and loving woman she was. Bright, beautiful and filled with passion.
I love you Karen, yesterday, today and tomorrow.

A Success

So, 7 days after writing this, Quinn received the phone call we have waited 7 months for.

Come back to work!!!!!

As I was writing this blog, he called to tell me about his first day "out on the streets". He loved it. Quinn loves to help people and he loves to feel he is also protecting people. It is a perfect job for him at this point in his life. I could hear the joy in his voice. My prayers have been answered.

Being Surrendered, letting go of the how's, it works.

Here is a post from another blog of mine;

People talk of unwavering hope, trust, faith, optimism and Surrender. Easy to talk about and often hard to walk the walk.

I have a son who is a vision of walking the walk and I am so proud of him. On October 9 this past year he had a massive heart attack while he was in the last few days of training to become a police officer. He was second in his class of 50 and looking forward to being on duty the following week. He was only 23 years old and had already spent 4 years in the military with 2 deployments.

Yes, he is a warrior...but a warrior of the highest kind...he is the one you would want by your side in an emergency. The one fighting for you and your loved ones. He has passion and a light that shines brightly. Of course he is my child and I love him dearly, so I may be somewhat biased.

A few days after his heart attack his doctor came into his room and when my son asked when he could go back to work he was told (in the doctors opinion) he would never be a police officer. He had just spent a year of his life in training and was not at all pleased with this comment. He pushed on!!!

He was released from the hospital and soon told he was testing positive for an auto-immune disease called Anti-phospholipid antibody syndrome and it would require a blood thinning medication for the rest of his life. This would be a deal breaker (if true) to ever being a police officer. But he held onto hope, trust, faith, optimism and was Surrendered to the perfect outcome for all.3 months later when tested again, he was negative for the anitbodies and subsequent tests again were negative.

Many specialists and tests later, he was taken off the blood thinners (deal back on) and again he pushed on. Finally when he thought the end of this ordeal was soon to be over he was asked to take a nuclear stress test to see the extent of the damage to his heart. Although the test showed damage, he passed this test with flying colors.

He called his doctor and asked for an immediate return to work order. Weeks went by, phone calls made. Nothing. Finally a return to work order was sent to his lawyer to be sent to the police department. It was not good news. The doctor again showed negativity and said he could not promise he would not have another heart attack. My son would require monitoring and health checkups (OMG not another deal breaker)...but my son held onto hope, trust, faith, optimism and Surrender. What will be will be and it is in God's hands now.

This week, 7 months since his heart attack, he recieved a phone call from the captain of his police department. "Could you be here Monday morning for duty?"Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can!!!!!!!!!!!! I Am filled with hope, trust, faith, optimism. I have Surrendered and the time is now.

In my world, none of it ever would have happened. EVER. When he had the heart attack I had already spent years manifesting a wonderful life for him. I was heart broken myself. I remember while he was in the hospital the pain in my own heart was palpable...his was somewhat broken and mine was breaking for his! But through it all we have both held onto our belief that we are never alone, that we are on purpose, and that God is watching over and caring for this situation.We both have held onto hope, trust, faith, optimism and remained Surrendered to the perfect outcome.

It was sometimes hard not knowing how this would resolve. Would he ever work again? Would his health remain stable? Of course there were moments and days where we each had to dig deep to find these qualities. There were moments when I felt abandon by God only to have Him reach down and hold me in His arms and reassure me that 'all was well'. But every moment that I look at my son, I look with pure awe at what he has endured at such a young age. He has Powerful Intentions and he is manifesting them each moment.

We may never in this life know the reason for his heart attack. The medical community has no answers. All we can do is have hope in a bright future for him, keep the faith even when things don't appear to be going the way we want, trust that there was a reason and he is cared for always, and to let our optimism shine brightly for others to see. I am blessed beyond measure and I am always Surrendered.

Thursday, May 01, 2008

Day 1 2008

Since I wrote this course, I have done this many times...I still have all of the days worth of lessons from a couple of years ago and it is amazing to see how the Universe has helped and changed each of my fears. When I first wrote the course, my son was serving in Afghansitan and money was a huge issue. The second time I did it, he was in Iraq and we had moved and money was flowing. I did it again last summer and it was a whirlwind of change. Whew it was one heck of a ride.

Soon after finishing it and going through some real trying times, I came to a place of bliss. Amazing peace and bliss. The next day, my 23 year old son (the same son) had a massive heart attack.

The Surrendering I have done in the past 7 months has been amazing. I am blessed to be able to let God handle my life. I trust the Infinite. I continue to be a work in progress.

So...starting again.

1) Fears.
Still human. Still have fears come up.

AND THE THEME IS (drum roll)...HELLO?

OK, so I need to rethink this. I was about to write something and realize that it is not really a fear. I am over it for the most part. I don't even want to put it in is a hint. When your healthy 23 year old son has a heart attack that still has no known cause, it can rock your world. It sets you wondering how something so unexpected can happen to a healthy person. Your mind (that loud voice of negativity) says, "What makes you think it could not happen again?". ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhgrrrrrrrrrr. I really dislike the voice.

But when I sit down and really go over the journey of this child, it is beyond amazing to know how protected and cared for he has been, despite all he has been through. And this has become my focus rather than the fear of losing him.

I HAVE healed much of my fear. Circumstances have allowed me to really meet this fear straight on in the face. I am blessed. What a journey it has been.

So back to square one.

I guess a fear I have or something that challenges me and I would like to retire to God's hand is my feelings of not stepping out and being all I can be. My fear of rejection or being disliked for putting my thoughts and feelings out in the world.

I would like to touch people with the message of my journey, and fear I will step in my own way of achieving this.

I am here to help and I say this loud and clear so anyone listening will ask.

This is my voice, these are my intentions, my desires, my will. I ask that I align myself with Source to allow them to materialize in this world.

I Surrender This...

Saturday, April 26, 2008

Starting a new 60 Day course of Surrender

It has been a long time since I have made the effort to do some real and heartfelt releasing. I look forward to giving my challenges over to Spirit. I welcome it with open heart.

I will be starting on Monday and blogging once again. I could never have imagined where it would have led last summer. It was some journey. I will just be in the moment and know that whatever truths I need to discover will make themselves evident to me and help me heal in anyway that is needed. I long for this.

If you would like to join in...please do.

Here is a link to sign up;

Thursday, April 17, 2008

April 7

Silence is often a lost treasure in our day to day lives.

Our heart and soul often yearn for quiet solitude.

Contemplation, inner awareness, meditation.

Make time for these and Surrender within the quiet solitude of the moment.

Shhhhhhhh......quiet the mind.

Friday, April 04, 2008


I have been away from the blog for awhile. I took a vacation during the month of March and feel refreshed after a long year.

Quinn is doing well. He feels great and is more than ready to be back at work. He is still in the process of returning to work. The legalities of it all seem never ending. Most of the time he has a good attitude about it and just keeps pushing forward in hopes that it is soon. It has been 6 months now since his heart attack and that is much too long for a young man of 23 to be hanging around.

So on another subject completely, today I fell in love. Head over smacking heals with Cary Grant. Ahhh you laugh!!! I watched a movie called "An Affair to Remember" starring Grant and Deborah Kerr and fell for him. Tall, dark and handsome. I love old movies. I am a sentimental fool and thoroughly enjoy the love stories of past years. I could spend days watching them.

I also loved a song that was played in the movie called Tomorrowland. Here is a tribute to Cary Grant with Deborah Kerr singing the song Tomorrowland.

Surrender Note:

Tomorrowland needs not happen in the future. It can happen today.
Close your eyes, make a wish, Surrender, and you're there

Monday, February 04, 2008

Saint of 9/11

Today I watched a most inspiring documentary called "The Saint of 9/11". It is about a chaplain for the NYFD who died on 9/11. His name is Father Mychal Judge. It is a truly inspiring movie that I urge you all to see.

I have Netflix and was able to download it right to my computer. Here is a link to a website devoted to the film.

Thursday, January 24, 2008

Matters of the heart

Quinn saw his cardiologist yesterday and received the news that his heart is back to pumping the normal amount of blood from his heart. This is great news. He also learned that the area where he lost blood supply during the MI has scarred. I guess this is expected, although I affirm he can turn these scars into healthy tissue again.

Yesterday, apropos, this was the days Heaven Letters. I will just copy the first part, you can read the entire letter on the site.

This is a portion 1/23/2008 HeavanLetter

God said:

There isn't any revelation that cannot reach the hollows of your heart.

There is not one thing in Heaven or on Earth that cannot appear in your heart.

There is not one blessing that cannot be deep in your heart.

All manifestations of love can live in your heart.

This is what your heart was made for.

All My beautiful messages are sent to your dear heart and are reachable there.

One message of love is reaching you right now.

Your heart is eager to receive My love. It is gulping at the chance.

Your heart beats for this splendid opportunity that is before it right now.

There are dozens of messages on their way to your heart.

Dozens, trillions!

All the messages I have ever sent continue to crisscross the Universe.

All of my energy whizzes through the Universe.

There is no heartbeat I miss.

I will read this message daily, for as long as it takes, for Quinn's heart to feel the healing and love that God is sending his way.

Wednesday, January 09, 2008

It is 3 months to the day since Quinn's heart healing MI. He is doing well. He will see his doctors next week to see how well he has healed. I am praying for a complete healing of his heart. A heart with perfect and strong function. If you read this, prayers for this would be much appreciated.


Thursday, January 03, 2008

May you be blessed in the new year

2008 is here. In one respect, it is just another day. But for me it feels like a new beginning. A time of quiet reflection and inner work. I love the new year and the promise it holds for change of self if we so desire.

When recently asked what my new years resolution was, I simply stated that I do not make new years resolutuons. What I DO do is to take notice of my life and look for ways to improve it. I found last year to be quite challenging. I look now within myself to see why I viewed it as such a challenge. Was it mearly my mental state? Or would most be challenged by the events of the recent months.

I look with optimism and trust toward this new year. Trust in myself and God that all is well. All is being cared for. I am Surrendered.