Tuesday, July 31, 2007

I AM grateful

Today we are going to lighten up the mood from the past few days and concentrate on gratitude.

Gratitude is a choice to see things in a different light. The light of God. When you are grateful it is almosts impossible to feel negative. Remember that what you focus on becomes your reality. When you focus on all the things you don't have, or all the people that treat you unfairly, or all the heartache that you have, then this is what you are creating for your life. Instead focus on all the things you have to feel grateful for. This is an important part of changing your neural pathways.

So for today's lesson I would like you to make an extensive list of all those things that you are grateful for. I would like you to write down at least 75-100 things that you are grateful for in your life. This should be easy. If you struggle with this, then I would suggest that you are focusing on lots of negativity in your life. Take a deep breath and see the bright side.

When you are done with this list I would like you to take it and read it through. As you go through each item I would like you to state, "Thank you for giving me this. I Surrender my joy to you".

When thinking of Surrendering, many people are under the impression that it is only our grief, sorrow and heartache that we should Surrender. This is not so, When you Surrender your joy and thanksgiving to the Universe, you are saying " Thank you, give me more".

The place where Surrender resides is in the very heart of God. The magnitude at which your joy and gratitude will be transformed into more joy when you Surrender it, is ten to twenty fold. Heartache attracts heartache. Sorrow attracts sorrow. Depression attracts depression. Joy attracts joy!

Gratitude attracts more circumstances to be grateful for.

1) Molly
2) Quinn
3) my family-my parents-my sisters and brothers-all extended family
4) Scott-Scott's family
5) Betty
6) all of my animals past and present
7) my home
8) the sun
9) the moon
10) the stars
11) the countless aspects of nature
12) music
13) ears to hear it with
14) eyes
15) food
16) touch
17) cotton-organic
18) farmers
19) birds-Veedor
20) art
21) cameras
22) books
23) the authors that write books
24) the internet
25) simple living
26) the ocean
27) every cell in my being
28) the perfection of my living body
29) my mind
30) laughter
31) tears
32) friends
33) school-teachers
34) a warm bed to lie in each night
35) the country
36) my computers
37) coffee
38) tea
39) explorers
40) people willing to take a risk
41) yoga
42) dance
43) picnics
44) summer
45) fall
46) warm sand in my toes
47) cool evenings
48) fireflies
49) flowers
50) my car
51) roads to drive on
52) electricity
53) candle-light
54) fruit
55) vegetables
56) clean bathrooms
57) hot showers
58) the sense of smell
59) warm breezes coming through windows
60) clean air
61) clean water
62) the angels
63) GOD-how could this be so far down the list? should be #1
64) my mentors
65) my abundant income
66) the ability to help others
67) healers-in all forms
68) warm clothes-wool
69) arms to hug with
70) my beating heart
71) blue skies
72) Toby Pond
73) The ball park road
74) Haystack Mountain
75) Green Donkey's
76) Every moment of my life
77) Rainbows
78) Sunrise
79) Sunsets
80) the rumble of thunder
81) miracles
82) Peace
83) Love
84) Forgivness
85) Tolerance

Monday, July 30, 2007

Limiting beliefs Part 2

Since the inception of "I Surrender This", I have had an image in my mind of it being helpful to many, many people. I see hundreds/thousands of people waving their white flags and holding a peace-filled vigil of Surrender. I speak and inspire many. I am the cheerleader of Surrender.

As the day to day workings of trying to get the Surrender message out have often seemed futile to me...there have been many days of discouragment. It has created a limiting belief in me that people do not care or need the idea of "I Surrender This".

The voice that says this is the voice of the ego...and today...I pledge not to listen to it any longer.

I am deaf to the limiting voice of the ego.

I am mute to the ego voice within my mind.

I hear nothing...I speak nothing back.

My teaching, my surrender work....sustains me with abundance, peace and helping others.

Sunday, July 29, 2007

Birthday greetings and love from a mom

Well today is a very special day. It is my son't 23rd Birthday.

My son is an integral part of "I Surrender This" and without him and his journey, I very well might not be sitting here writing this blog on Surrender.

Although I have not as yet written a complete account of what it was like having a son at war...it was the precipice for "I Surrender This". It was my own "dark night of the soul".

I created "I Surrender This" during his first deployment to Afghanistan which lasted for 10 months. Both the project and the concept of Surrender are what kept me going, what got me through. He was 19 years old. Here is a photo of him during that time. He loves animals!!!
It was on his 19th birthday that he called me with the news that he was to deploy to Afghanistan. What a birthday present!!! Here is an exerpt from a letter I wrote to news-anchor Peter Jennings.
On his 19 birthday, I received a phone call at work from him. The first thing he said to me was that he had just received the best birthday present of his life. I had not sent him anything and wondered what on Earth he could have gotten. He told me they had received orders that morning that they were deploying to Afghanistan in October. This was the end of July, July 29th to be exact. I swallowed hard and tried to be happy for him. I hung up the phone and cried. He came home to Connecticut on leave a few weeks before his deployment and let me tell you, saying goodbye to him at the airport was THE hardest thing I have ever done in my life. No words can begin to explain the emotion of sending a son off to war. He would be stationed on the border of Pakistan working as part of a 7 man scout/sniper team.
Today July 29, 2007...we celebrate another birthday. I thank God every day for my ability to Surrender. The peace I got when I placed this beloved child of mine directly into the "hand of God".
So, my Quinn, Happy, Happy Birthday. I love you more than words can say. Thank you for all that you are...a hero to many.

Friday, July 27, 2007

limiting beliefs

Today's lesson is on limiting beliefs.

It is amazing to me that with all the work I have done on changing my belief patterns, that there is still the age old belief of low-esteem that keeps me down.

What I DO know is that I love to help people and I love to teach. So I will keep focused on these two things and let go of all the rest.

For the sake of the blog I will write down some limiting beliefs.

I do not have enough financial resources to bring "I Surrender This" out into the world.

It does not seem that anyone needs help with Surrender.

Who am I to be an expert on Surrender?

I don't write well enough to make a compelling book.

Questions to ask myself

Does this make sense?
How did I learn these ideas, and from whom?
How does believing in this affect me?
Does it help me succeed or does it hinder me, and how?

Well I know one thing for sure. None of these beliefs are helping me....and so I will say;

I DO HAVE enough financial resourses to bring "I Surrender This" out into the world.

Everyone needs help with Surrender in some form or another.

I AM an expert on Surrender?

I write well enough to make a compelling book.

And so it is

Wednesday, July 25, 2007

Today's Internet Radio Program

Just wanted to remind my friends here on the blog that I will be speaking about Surrender today on my radio show at 11:30 EST at www.blogtalkradio.com

I hope you listen or call in and ask a question or comment on how you Surrender.
(646) 716-8237

See you there!


Tuesday, July 24, 2007

Day 8-Letting go of guilt

As I go through this course I am finding the power of transformation. It has worked for me. In todays lesson it asks to write down things/circumstances you "feel" guilty about.

Assignment for today. Without too much dwelling, I would like you to write down the guilty feelings that you hold onto. I do not want you to go through every little thing you have ever felt you did wrong. I would like you to write about those things that are stapled to you. Those situations that you hold onto day after day. I would also like you to write about those things that others have done to you that you are holding onto.

Having gone through this course a few other times, I see that I have really let go and surrendered those things that used to make me feel guilty. Guilt is just not something I feel anymore....and I also make choices in my life that would not put the added burden of guilt onto me. If I feel I have wronged someone, I apologize, right away.

I remember when I first took this course that the feelings of guilt I had were about not being able to financially give to my children things that other children might have had. I was wracked with guilt for not becoming "something" in my life...not being financially successful. That is all gone now. No guilt. I gave what I could, and became who I could become. My children would tell you that I gave more than enough, that I am more than enough. So what else matters?

I have surely let go of this guilt....and what a release it has been. The funny thing is, that when I let go of the guilt, I also let go of the ability for others to make me feel guilty. It became just some word with no meaning behind it. That is all it is. 5 letters put together to form a feeling.

Monday, July 23, 2007


Today's lesson is about guilt! It can be so crippling and it is something I do my best to avoid. I spent many years playing the guilty game. I was guilty of everything! No more...nope, not me.

I am who I am, who I am.

I am never one to intentionally hurt another...does it happen sometimes. I'm sure it does. But through my Surrender work, I have learned that the past is the past. Why spend anytime in guilt about it...it can't be changed. This has been a huge lesson for me....to live within the moment. Not in the future. Not in the past. But alive and kicken in the present moment of now.

What a joy and relief it is!

Here is a reference about guilt taken from " A Course in Miracles"

Read more about it :A Course in Miracles How It Came - What It Is - What It Says
T-13.X.4. When you maintain that you are guilty but the source of your guilt lies in the past, you are not looking inward. 2 The past is not in you. 3 Your weird associations to it have no meaning in the present. 4 Yet you let them stand between you and your brothers, with whom you find no real relationships at all. 5 Can you expect to use your brothers as a means to "solve" the past, and still to see them as they really are? 6 Salvation is not found by those who use their brothers to resolve problems that are not there. 7 You wanted not salvation in the past. 8 Would you impose your idle wishes on the present, and hope to find salvation now?

T-13.X.5. Determine, then, to be not as you were. 2 Use no relationship to hold you to the past, but with each one each day be born again. 3 A minute, even less, will be enough to free you from the past, and give your mind in peace over to the Atonement. 4 When everyone is welcome to you as you would have yourself be welcome to your Father, you will see no guilt in you. 5 For you will have accepted the Atonement, which shone within you all the while you dreamed of guilt, and would not look within and see it.

T-13.X.6. As long as you believe that guilt is justified in any way, in anyone, whatever he may do, you will not look within, where you would always find Atonement. 2 The end of guilt will never come as long as you believe there is a reason for it. 3 For you must learn that guilt is always totally insane, and has no reason. 4 The Holy Spirit seeks not to dispel reality. 5 If guilt were real, Atonement would not be. 6 The purpose of Atonement is to dispel illusions, not to establish them as real and then forgive them.

T-13.I.1. Earlier, I said that the Holy Spirit shares the goal of all good teachers, whose ultimate aim is to make themselves unnecessary by teaching their pupils all they know. 2 The Holy Spirit wants only this, for sharing the Father's Love for His Son, He seeks to remove all guilt from his mind that he may remember his Father in peace. 3 Peace and guilt are antithetical, and the Father can be remembered only in peace. 4 Love and guilt cannot coexist, and to accept one is to deny the other. 5 Guilt hides Christ from your sight, for it is the denial of the blamelessness of God's Son

Here you can find the complete reading on this:
A Course in Miracles/Chapter 13/ A Guiltless World

Saturday, July 21, 2007

Surrender Meditation-Day 5

I created this meditation for the 60 Days Course and found it to be something I would come back to time and time again. I have it memorized and say it whenever I am feeling ungrounded, attached to strong negative emotions or when I need soothing. I hope you enjoy it as well.
Meditation to a Higher Vibration

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Thursday, July 19, 2007

Days 3 & 4

I am off to a fantastic start. The excitement I am feeling is palpable. I am energized by the action and letting go that is taking place. As I move through just the first couple of days amazing things are happening.

Today I found a website where I can host a live talk show (hello...for free). I will be hosting it every Wednesday at 11:30 EST and discussing "60 Days to Surrender Success" and my journey.

I'm not even sure how I found this website...but it is JUST what I have been looking for as a platform. I hope you will join in or you can hear them in the archive.

I Have a Talk Show

The Universe is giving me so much information that I almost can't keep up. WOW.

Surrender....let Spirit move within you....magic.

Tuesday, July 17, 2007

Day 2

Woke up earlier than usual to "Fire the Grid". What a blessing I feel to live on this beautiful planet. My space in this world is green and full of animal life. I am so very blessed and I bless this Earth.

60 Days to Surrender Success

Day 2
Fear is not something that challenges me anymore. Thank you God. At least not on a level that it used to. Mostly I feel blocks in my personality. My unfocused mind. My lack of routine.


For the beginning of these 60 days I would like to focus on getting into a bit of a routine. Doing some time blocking. (I will need to research this) (quickly) LOL. Start an exercise and eating schedule. Meditation and prayer time. Time each day in making connections and working on my business.

I feel great! I love the motivation I feel! I am Surrendered and will go where God leads.
I ask for direction and miracles. Peace and abundance. Love and health. Joy and beauty.

And so it is.

Monday, July 16, 2007

Audio Blog for first day

Audio blog for first day.
Monday morning Day 1....off to a late start...but a start none the less. hmmmmm a letter to myself about my fears.

I have moved so far away from the fearful old me that it actually seems hard for me to come up with something. I guess my biggest fear at the moment is that my work with Surrender is going unheard. I so very much want to help people live the fearless, worryless life that I know brings joy and miracles. I sometimes feel inadaquate to get my message out...I just don't know how to go about it.

How would my life look if these fears were removed?
Wow...it makes me feel so excited and joyful to just think about it. I would be teaching and helping people on a daily basis. I would be meeting new people and telling my story. I would be giving hope and love to the world. I do this now on a very small scale and I would love to see it happen...and will see it happen...on a much larger scale.

What am I willing to do to see this change? I feel that I just need to direct my energy. Give more. Trust. Smile. My effort is in believing in the possibilities. Trusting in the outcome. Surrendering how it will happen....and wait for the magic and miracles.

What will happen if I do not change? Life will go on as it is...which is not all that bad. I am Surrendered!!!

Why is it important for me to change? How are my fears hindering my life?
Marianne Williamson said it best.

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.' We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we're liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others." (A Return to Love: Reflections on the Principles of "A Course in Miracles", Harper Collins, 1992. From Chapter 7, Section 3])

Monday, July 09, 2007

I have created this blog to share my experience as I go through the e-course "60 Days to Surrender Success". I wrote it!!! How about that. I thought is was time I did it again for myself. It was so powerful and life-changing the last time I did it...I wondered why I am not always doing it....but sometimes you need to break free...drift off...stop doing... and just breath.

For me, it is a time now for action. Action to move forward...remove blocks....live life to its fullest...and Surrender all. Today is the day.